01/12/2025
Well this day is going to be hard to get through!! On 1-12-23 Jesus took my husband and my children’s dad. James Sartwell Jr. and were married 8 years before we had our first child. We did so much and lived and enjoyed one another before we had our four awesome children. Then when we had our children that just added to the love we had for one another and then we were a family of 6. Jimmy and I had 38 years together we had a few rough years but it taught us a lot. He was my best friend and then we became bf and gf. It didn’t take him long before he asked me to marry him and we were married 36 years. Jimmy taught me so much and we were supposed to grow old together!! Jimmy never ever taught me to live without him!! I hear people say this all the time” you will see him again” “ it gets easier” “ time will heal you” well this may apply to some but it don’t me!!! I know I will see him again but it’s hard doing things without him!! It was always us 6 and we used to go to church, go out to eat, play games, watch movies, go to the pumpkin patch, the Christmas tree farm, go out for each child’s birthday, go shopping, lay in bed and talk and spend time just the two of us. I won’t go into details of why my hubby isn’t with us anymore but I do hope the two woman that was taking care of him in the hospital suffer just as much as we all do because of them!!! I know he is resting in paradise and he is needed and wanted here on earth!! I watched my husband die and my dad and that’s a vision you will never unsee!!! I will be forever broken and it’s like a glass or mirror you may be able to put it back together again but it won’t ever be the same!! This has been the hardest two years of my life. In 11-17-19 Jesus took Adriana’s my sons lady, then on 11-29-19 he took my dad Jerry Stratton, then on 1-10-23 he took my husbands dad, then the one that broke me on 1-12-23 he took my husband and I miss him so much!! I don’t know how to even begin to live I just try not to talk about him because I just cry and I try to keep busy so I don’t fall apart!! James & Sandra forever 1985 to forever!! We loved one another and I miss him his smell, his voice, his dumb jokes, his work stories, his small gifts, his laugh, his big blue eyes, his smile, his touch, his kisses and just everything!! Baby we did a lot and had some bad times but more good than bad and I never ever thought I would be without you!! 😩😩😭😭
